Wednesday, July 31, 2013

म हिड्ने गल्लीबाट


म सधैं हिड्ने
गल्ली, बाटो र चोकमा
गहिरो नजर लगाइ
हेरीबस्छु सधैं मलाई –
धेरै जीवनहरूमा एउटा छुट्टै जीवन
ओहोर दोहोर गरिबस्छ ,
बिहान जान्छ
बेलुकी फर्किआउँछ ।


बलैले च्यापेर, जोगाएर गल्लीबाट 
मूलबाटोमा पुर्‌याइ राख्छु ।
मूलबाटोबाट चोकमा
बसमा चढाइ बिदा गर्छु ।
दिनभरी धेरै खहरेहरूमा
एउटा खहरे मिसिएर
विशाल जीवनहरूमा एउटा जीवन हराउँछ ।
घर– कार्यालय– कामकाज
मित्र–शत्रु– हेर्नु– हेरिनु
छोएर जानु– कसैले छुनु
तारिफ–धम्की–चुनौती–अवसर
बच्नु र बचाउनु ....

बेलुकी एउटा छायाँ  फर्‌केर आउँछ,
म सधैं हिड्ने
गल्ली, बाटो र चोकमा ।

हरेक साँझले
एउटा आत्मग्लानी र दर्दमा
पर्दा खसाउँछ ।
हरेक बिहानले
एउटा तमाशाको निम्ति
पर्दा उघार्छ ।
मञ्चमा पुगेपछि
स्क्रीप्ट बिर्सने कलाकारको निम्ति
यताबाट सहानुभूति निस्केर
सहानुभूति फेरी फर्किआउँछ ।


बाटो किनारमा भएका
बिजुलीका खम्बाहरूबाट हेर्छु म
चोकमा भएका पसलेका आँखाहरूबाट हेर्छु म
कार्यालय छेउसम्म
बोकी लैजाने गाडीबाट हेर्छु म
माया दिँदा मात्र
माया पाइएको हो कि
अब त
बाटो, गल्ली र चोकले
परैबाट चिन्छ मलाई
मायाले हेरेर
माया देख्छु म –

म सधैं हिड्ने

गल्ली, बाटो र चोकमा ।


(४ अक्टुबर २०११)

Monday, July 15, 2013

Centripetal ?

Penalty (Jurmana): a story by Premchand.

1 Summary

Munshi Khairat Ali Khan was the inspector of Sanitation and hundreds of sweeper women depended on him. He was good-hearted and well thought of--not the sort who cut their pay, scolded them or fined them.

But he went on regularly rebuking and punishing Alarakkhi. She was not a shirker, nor saucy or slovenly; she was also not at all bad-looking. During these chilly days she would be out with her broom before it was light and go on assiduously sweeping the road until nine. But all the same, she would be penalized. Huseni, her husband, would help her with the work too when he found the chance, but it was in Alarakkhi's fate that she was going to be fined. For others pay-day was an occasion to celebrate, for Alarakkhi it was a time to weep. On that day it was as though her heart had broken. Who could tell how much would be deducted! Like students awaiting the results of their examinations, over and over again she would speculate on the amount of the deduction.

Whenever she got so tired that she'd sit down a moment to catch her breath, precisely then the Inspector would arrive riding in his ekka. No matter how much she'd say, 'Please, Excellency, I’ll go back to work again,' he would jot her name down in his book without listening. A few days later the very same thing would happen again. If she bought a few cents worth of candy from the sweets-vendor and started to eat it, just at that moment the Inspector would drop on her from the devil knew where and once more write her name down in his book. Where could he have been hiding? The minute she began to rest the least bit he was upon her like an evil spirit. If he wrote
her name down on only two days, how much would the penalty be then! God knew. More than eight annas? If only it weren't a whole rupee! With her head bowed she'd go to collect her pay and find even more deducted than she'd estimated. Taking her money with trembling hands she'd go home, her eyes full of tears. There was no one to turn to, no one who'd listen.

Today was pay-day again. The past month her unweaned daughter had suffered from coughing and fever. Several times she'd come to work late. Khan Sahib had noted down her name, and this time she would be fined half her pay. It was impossible to say how much might be deducted.


Early in the morning she picked up the baby, took her broom and went to the street. But the naughty creature wouldn't let herself be put down. Time after time Alarakkhi would threaten her with the arrival of the Inspector. 'He's on his way and he'll beat me and as for you, he'll cut off your nose and ears! 'The child was willing to sacrifice her nose and ears but not to be put down. At last, when Alarakkhi had failed to get rid of her with threats and coaxing alike, she set her down and left her crying and wailing while she started to sweep. But the little wretch wouldn't sit in one place to cry her heart out; she crawled after her mother time and time again, caught her sari, clung to her legs, then wallowed around on the ground and a moment later sat up to start crying again.

'Shut up!' Alarakkhi said, brandishing the broom. 'If you don't, I’ll hit you with the broom and that'll be the end of you. That bastard of an Inspector's going to show up at any moment.'

She had hardly got the words out of her mouth when inspector Khairat Ali Khan dismounted from his bicycle directly in front of her. She turned pale, her heart began to thump. 'Oh God, may my head fall off if he heard me! Right in front of me and I didn't see him. Who could tell he'd come on his bicycle today? He's always come in his ekka. ‘The blood froze in her veins, she stood holding the broom as though paralyzed.

Angrily the Inspector said, 'Why do you drag the kid after you to work!
Why didn't you leave it at home!'

'She's sick, Excellency' Alarakkhi said timidly. 'Who's at home to leave her with!'

'What's the matter with her?'

'She has a fever, Huzoor.

'And you make her cry by leaving her? Don't you care if she lives?

'How can I do my work if I carry her?'

'Why don't you ask for leave!'

'If my pay is cut, Huzoor, what will we have to live on?'

'Pick her up and take her home. When Huseni comes back send him here
to finish the sweeping.

She picked up the baby and was about to go then he asked, 'Why were
you abusing me!'

Alarakkhi felt all her breath knocked out of her. If you'd cut her there
wouldn't have been any blood. Trembling she said, 'No, Huzoor, may my
head fall off if I was abusing you.
And she burst into tears.

In the evening Huseni and Alarakkhi went to collect her pay. She was very
downcast.

'Why so sad?' Huseni tried to console her. 'The pay's going to be cut, so let
them cut it. I swear on your life from now on I won't touch another drop of
booze or toddy.'

'I'm afraid I'm fired. Damn my tongue! How could I....’

'If you're fired, then you're fired, but let Allah be merciful to him. Why go
on crying about it?’

'You’ve made me come for nothing. Everyone of those women will laugh
at me.

'If he's fired you, won't we ask on what grounds! And who heard you abuse him' Can there be so much injustice that he can fire anyone he pleases!
If I'm not heard I’ll complain to the panchayat, I'll beat my head on the
headman's gate--'

'If our people stuck together like that would Khan Sahib ever dare fine us
so much''

'No matter how serious the sickness there's a medicine for it, silly.'

But Alarakkhi was not set at rest. Dejection covered her face like a cloud. When the Inspector heard her abuse him why didn't he even scold her? Why didn't he fire her on the spot! She wasn't able to work it out, he actually seemed kind. She couldn't manage to understand this mystery. She was afraid. He had decided to fire her- that must have been why he was so nice. She'd heard that a man about to be hanged is given a fine last meal, they have to give him anything he wants-so surely the Inspector was going to dismiss her. They reached the municipal office building. The pay began to be distributed. The sweeper women were first. Whoever's name was called would go running and taking her money call down undeserved blessings on the Inspector and go away. Alarakkhi’s name was always called after Champa's. Today she was passed over. After Champa, Jahuran's name was called, and she always followed Alarakkhi.

In despair she looked at Huseni. The women were watching her and beginning to whisper.

One after another the names were called and Alarakkhi went on looking at the trees across the way.

Suddenly startled, she heard her name. Slowly she stood up and walked ahead with the slow tread of a new bride. The paymaster put the full amount of six rupees in her hand.

She was stupefied. Surely the paymaster was mistaken! In these three years she had never once got her full pay. And now to get even half would have been a windfall. She stood there for a second in case the paymaster should ask for the money back. When he asked her, 'Why are you standing here now, why don't you move along!' she said softly,

'But it's the full amount.’

Puzzled the paymaster looked at her and said, 'What else do you want--do
you want to get less!'

'There's no penalty deducted?'

'No, today there aren't any deductions.

She came away but in her heart she was not content. She was full of
remorse for having abused the Inspector.

2. A force that gravitates.
Everyone wears a mask in society. This story also puts a mask per se for the readers so that they may plumb the truth of human behavior. We do not want people to glimpse our self doubting within us. The story demands a diligent effort for underpinning the complexity of human behavior. Our personality and ego are much fragile than they appear to be. Bringing doubt and anxiety will make people feel gravitated towards the force that attracts them. Most people want to be liked by others. But they tend to generate dislike in others around, too. Occasionally, people may resort to ingratiation- an attempt to increase a target person's liking for them.

The most annoying question in the story is why does not Khairat Ali Khan punish Alla Rakkhi for abusing him. How does a man like him come to be set up against the traditional practice of punishment? The story represents him a modern employer, the inspector of Sanitation, on whom hundreds of sweeper women depend for their livelihood. The antagonism between the employer and the employee is as sure as the sun rising from the east. It is only invisible on the grounds of social cohesiveness. However, its manifestation is universal. “Visibility is a trap.” Says Michel Foucault, in Discipline and Punish: The Birth of the Prison. He was very interested in the way in which punishment had changed in different historical periods. According to his notion the concept of modern punishment involved much less physical cruelty, but was more psychological in nature. Punishment designed to demonstrate the power of the sovereign and often involved severe physical punishment was a pre-modern notion. Therefore, eye for an eye is a classical way of punishment.

Khairat Ali Khan punishes Alla Rakkhi in a disguised form. The "leniency" is a calculated economy of power to punish. This power is applied not to the body but to the mind as a play of representations or signs. It is generally designed to observe and control the individual, to limit their movements, and in effect to take over all aspects of their lives. 'There's no penalty deducted' means an economy of punishment. Alla Rakhi thinks herself not less than 'a man about to be hanged is given a fine last meal'. She gets the full amount of her salary which makes her 'full of remorse for having abused the Inspector'.
Foucault analyzed the people in power moved from attacking bodies to seizing goods. For him the soul is the prison of the body. Alla Rakkhi is preoccupied by the changed way of punishment and 'She couldn't manage to understand this mystery'. Her preoccupied situation is a stance for psychological imprisonment. She is amazingly being hooked and the story does not tell us that she is on the point of revolt understandably. Rather, there is a probability that she will comply with the authority of her boss, Khairat Ali Khan. She suffers a mirror defect. When she sees him she sees herself: her values and her flaws. 'I'm afraid I'm fired. Damn my tongue! How could I....’ she tells her husband.

The story closes with author's supporting comment-
She was full of remorse for having abused the Inspector.

What gravitates her towards the authority of the inspector is what because of the art of seduction. It is a game of psychology, not beauty. Seducers are people who understand the tremendous power contained in such moments of surrender. They see themselves as provider of pleasure. They are never self-absorbed. Their gaze is directed outward, not inward. (Green: preface. xi). Seduction is an induced surrendered in one's target (person). The wound of her abuse at him seems no such deeper than the effect of lull created for her. The analysis, before be foisted as biased toward Khairat Alli Khan, worth it would be to see three variables below- A,B and C, affecting one another.

A
'Khairat Ali Khan was good-hearted and well thought of--not the sort who cut their pay, scolded them or fined them.'

B
'Alla Rakkhi was not a shirker, nor saucy or slovenly; she was also not at all bad-looking. During these chilly days she would be out with her broom before it was light and go on assiduously sweeping the road until nine '

C
but it was in Alarakkhi's fate that she was going to be fined. For others pay day was an occasion to celebrate, for Alarakkhi it was a time to weep. On that day it was as though her heart had broken. Who could tell how much would be deducted! Whenever she got so tired that she'd sit down a moment to catch her breath, precisely then the Inspector would arrive riding in his ekka. No matter how much she'd say, 'Please, Excellency, I’ll go back to work again,' he would jot her name down in his book without listening. With her head bowed she'd go to collect her pay and find even more deducted than she'd estimated. Taking her money with trembling hands she'd go home, her eyes full of tears. There was no one to turn to, no one who'd listen.

Human expectation is that good begets good. But, C is the discrepancy of the expectation between A and B. it is also a further precursor of what Alla Rakkhi would find herself scrupulous to accept her full payment without any deduction in amount. Not surprisingly, human behavior is non-linear. The intersection of her experience sets her rationality in ambivalence. She is in search of a center of meaning of this ambivalence. Brooding over her flaws that she mirrors in the kindness of her boss who bestows on her a full payment, she is gravitated toward him. she is pushed ahead for she is under the force of poverty. Her husband is drunkard. She has a baby girl who is sick, yet she brings her along, instead of taking to treatment. She is virtually imprisoned for she has become an object of the art of seduction. The author's comments on her at the beginning versus at the end is interesting.

But though she put up with just about anything she had managed not to let Khan Sahib put his hands on her.
(Before Alla Rakkhi speaks rude about Khairat Alli Khan)

Versus,

She came away but in her heart she was not content. She was full of
remorse for having abused the Inspector.
(After Alla Rakkhi finds herself not being punished by Khairat Alli Khan)

Alla Rakkhi is a serpent that hisses- 'That bastard of an Inspector's going to show up at any moment.' But then, a serpent that refuses to bite the charmer- The blood froze in her veins, she stood holding the broom as though paralyzed.

'Why were you abusing me!'

Alarakkhi felt all her breath knocked out of her. If you'd cut her there
wouldn't have been any blood.

Trembling she said, 'No, Huzoor, may my head fall off if I was abusing you.'

And she burst into tears.

People are narcissist – they are drawn to those most similar to themselves (Green: The Charmer.p.41). Alla Rakkhi thinks about herself much why she abused her boss and yet he does not punish her. On the contrary, to punish her, Khairat Alli Khan must have used the art of seduction borrowing the opium from Ovid

Go with the bough, you'll bend it;
Use brute force, it'll snap.
Go with the current: that's how to swim across the river.
Fighting up stream's no good.
Go easy with lions and tigers if you aim to tame them;
The bull gets inured to plough by slow degrees
So, yield if she shows resistance:
That way you'll with the end.


(Ovid, The Art of Love. Translated by Peter Green)